Random Writings

LETTERS

Sometimes the whole world looks like an enemy to me. I feel like I’m alone, facing the cruel realities of life, alone facing the dubious men, alone like the only oasis in a desert, alone in the dark. 

Sometimes we don't understand the nature of our fall, our demise. It’s a general human tendency to lay the blame of something unfortunate to the people around you. People often go around blaming others for their mishaps. They often wonder about the cause of their fall, wonder about the people who were responsible for their downfall. And so did I.

But sometimes the answers lie very near...nearer than you ever thought.

I tried to ignore all but couldn’t. I tried to look within...deep inside that beating heart. I asked her about myself, asked her about every single thing I wanted to know...

 

Sometimes it’s you and only you who are to be blamed for your downfall. Sometimes you unknowingly script your own demise, you unknowingly go away from the path you were supposed to walk on...people tend to learn from their mistakes. Will I ever learn from mine?

If I look back, the one thing that outshines every other single thing is Failure. When will the time come? When will I learn? Laziness ruins me...it has been ruining me for years and it will continue to ruin if not stopped. Laziness is like a parasite...it allures you. It tempts you with the highest climax of comfort...comfort that will plague you with the guilt of having it afterwards.

Sometimes I feel ashamed of myself...I always wanted to be someone. Someone who can stand against his father proudly, someone one can stand against his friends proudly and mock at them just in fun, someone who can really be proud of his achievements. I guess all that is gone now. Sometimes successive failures weaken you from inside. It douses the fire inside of you, it corrodes your mettle.it wastes you.

Sometimes it's better to be lost, it’s better to be immersed in the sea of sadness and darkness. It’s better to be ALONE.